I wrote this piece after attending a church service on August 28, 2019.
I have been unable to regularly attend ANY church since my experience of homelessness, so my emotions were on high alert during both of the two services I have recently attended.
(At the same church, and not online!)
Is this a safe house for me to return to, after the many harsh rejections I have experienced during my recovery?
I don't know the answer to that yet, but I am hopeful.
My experience of homelessness has revealed to me my divine assignment to build Kataluma, and so I am in hot pursuit of that assignment.
The problem is, trust and connections are built at the speed of relationship, and it's difficult for me to keep a tight reign on the speed of sharing my vision for Kataluma, and sharing my passion to help meet the needs of those who are homeless and impoverished in our nation.
These are the words that came spilling out as I processed the emotions I felt before, during, and after the experience of attending that service.
The needs of those who are homeless are urgent and desperate, but for the sake of those in the church world, I must proceed gently because they have only recently been made aware of my presence.
Seeking to find my place to belong in a church environment stirs great conflict for me and is coaxing me out of hiding, but that process is also designed to help acclimate the church to the rigors of trauma recovery, and stir compassion for those whose lives were NOT rooted and grounded in the church world.
Where we go from here remains to be seen...
Connie, August 30, 2019
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